I am feeling quite discouraged lately. After discovering Unsolicited Advice, printing out the "form" for my Bare Minimum and discovering the issues that are getting me down, I thought that things would improve. It has been nearly three weeks and I still have yet to fill out and post my Bare Minimum.
I had good intentions, but only the day after posting our new schedule we decided to move. Since then we have packed up everything that was not needed before the move, my husband has gotten a new job and I have been missing way too much sleep. I thought that having so many things packed would make it a piece of cake to keep the house clean. Boy, was I wrong! I think it's actually more disorganized! Josh's new job has meant that where I have had his help for most days this past year, I am now on my own. And the lack of sleep! Jonah went from not nursing during the day and nursing a few times at night to nursing several times a day and so many times at night that I lost track. After two nights of getting little sleep, I really felt like it was time to wean him. The first night was difficult and I almost gave up, but last night was surprisingly easy. I am so excited about the possibility of being able to sleep an full, uninterrupted eight hours tonight!
Last night I finally found a few minutes to look through my issue of The Old Schoolhouse Magazine. It was full of terrific articles that should have offered encouragement, but I just didn't feel it. I am feeling as though things are overwhelming. The house is a mess, discipline is sub-par, manners are lacking and we aren't accomplishing the things that we should. Being organized and disciplined do not come naturally to me. I really struggle in these areas. My plan? Well, I don't actually have one. That's the problem, I guess. I'm just floundering here.